Diary 1987
In me the Power of prophetic Consecration acts. I have to believe, that’s it. Only in this way will be glad and mainly fertile for the Church.
My prophetic situation is such that nobody can help me from outside.
No miracle made through me can give me the prophetic Self-conscience.
God wants me to be a living Truth, not only lived.
When I proclaim with strength and quietness, shameless, I am the prophet of Christ, then I will be the tool of Miracle.
I will not only speak to the Church but also to the world.
I will fight Satan facing it.
If I am «antagonist of Satan», my prophecy has the same width of the mystery of Satan.
The only reason of my “absurd” choices is God, only knowing that God wants it. Otherwise I would refuse this impossible “load”.
Lord, I thank you for my humiliations. I am glad because through them You protect me from pride.
There is a fire in my bones. Putting it out is my damnation. Putting it out means putting me out.
It is not me to want me to be a prophet, but Someone and Something. A sort of stigma, an ontological wound.
It is always about combining Plato and Aristotle, the being and the beings, the ideas and the substance.
I am ontologically signed. “I consecrate you prophet…”.
Only God can uproot me from myself, by uprooting me. I have to entrust me to this fundamental Gesture: “I consecrate you prophet…”.
The Lord, after consecrating me prophet, pushed me in the Company of Jesus to know the Church more seriously, taking me out of it to build it.
As for my Mission, the Lord will never act without my knowledge.
Only God wants to be the Light of my prophecy. Woe betide me if I let my consent to the Light depend on the consent of the church.
The sin against the Spirit is the sin against intelligence. Is this the original sin?
Everything “happens” in my life, happens for the others.
Being faithful to the Purest, to the Purest ones until the martyr of the heart and senses, if necessary.
Give, Lord, the grace of laughing, despite the seriousness of my things, better, of Your things in me and out of me.
A prophet who is sexually impure remains ontologically prophet but his prophecy does not shine.
The Message of God to the church
In its thematic density and its programmatic polyphony
Was received by me in a moment
It was not Inspiration but Communication
It was a mental and spiritual Event
I was passive and activated at the same time
To understand it, interpret it, to explain it
I was conscious
Of the fact that the Message transcended me
I was tired but lively at the same time
No intellectual ecstasy
But pure mental Audition
I was deeply unable
To manipulate the Message received.
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